In an inner search!

Ai  avut vreodata senzatia ca, cuvintele tale nu ajung nicaieri, ci ca se intorc inapoi ca un bumerang?! Interlocutorul nici macar nu a  sesizat rostul cuvintelor pe care le-ai aruncat, le-a luat pur si simplu ca ceva neinteles, si a trecut peste…Uneori am senzatia ca nu stiu cine sunt si mai rau ca nu stiu ce vreau…Incerc sa descopar ce vreau, ceva care sa ma defineasca, ceva la care sa fiu “as”…nu doar o “dama” sau un “juvete” vreau premiul cel mare,vreau sa stapanesc un mestesug. Norocul meu este ca atunci cand cad in aceste stari de totala confuzie si haos, mama imi este alaturi sa ma “imbarbateze”, sa ma provoace la un duel cu cine nu sunt…si sa lupt pentru acel “ceva ” care vreau sa devin. Pana o sa fiu destul de matura sa decid ce/cine vreau sa fiu, vreau sa cred despre mine ca sunt un om mai bun ca ieri, un copil, un iubitor de animale…un visator fara somn!:) Thank you dear grumpy friend & colleague Klaudia Katona



Today’s motto: ” I knew I belonged to the public and to the world, not because I was talented or even beautiful, but because I had never belonged to anything or anyone else. ”

Have you ever felt like no one really understands you, like you are talking, but your word are coming back like a boomerang, not even touch the other person’s thoughts..Some times I have this strange feeling, like I really don’t belong to anyone, not even to myself..I really try to find a thing that defines me, that I can call it “my thing”. I really don’t have something that can be called mine, and sometimes hurts, because i really don’t know who I am , not even who I want to become. But thanks to God my mother always is there , challenging me to try to know what are my desires, what I want, and who I am. Until I’ll define all this things, I like to think that I’m a  good person,a child, an animal lover…I’m everything that I want, even if I don’t know what is that! I’m a  dreamer that doesn’t sleeps. 🙂

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  1. I don't think that what you have defines you. It is more your attitude, your choices and how you deal with whatever happens to you is what define you 🙂 your soul defines you. that's the only thing that you actually own, the rest remains here on this Earth after you die anyway 😉 so don't worry that much about material things.

    1. Indeed material things don't define you, but can make your day brighter…I'm saved because I have a big soul;))) I tend to worry from time to time about material things…

  2. I love these brightly shaded colours on your clothes and, as for the music, Selah Sue is relatively unknown to me so thank you for sharing. 🙂

  3. In primul rand , iti ador pantalonii!! Sunt clar genul meu.

    In al doilea rand , cred ca fiecare dintre noi a trecut prin astfel de momente, in care ,pur si simplu , nu reusim sa ne regasim si parca nimeni din jur nu e pe aceeasi lungime de unda cu noi. Mi s-a intamplat de multe sa nu reusesc sa ma fac inteleasa sau sa fiu inteleasa gresit. E teribil, cel putin eu ma simt foarte rau atunci cand lumea nu intelege exact ce simt si ce vreau. Mai ales ca sunt destul de vehementa de fiecare data. Incearca sa nu mai bazezi linistea si fericirea ta pe seama altora, ci doar pe seama ta. Iar cine nu te intelege, inseamna ca nu are cum sa iti fie prieten, cunostinta s.a.m.d.

    Te pup! O zi frumoasa!

    1. Multumesc frumos Cristina caa mi-ai citit postul.Adevarul ca este greu sa intelegi un om sucit ca mine, asa ca nu ma supar pe ei, ci doar pe mine…dar imi trece in cele din urma.Ma bucur sa vad totusi ca nu sunt asa sucita cum credeam, ci ca este o stare usor normala.

  4. Sometimes I have this feeling too, Like I'm talking and nobody understands me. It's just important to be in harmony with self, and figure out what you really need in life. It's great you have such a wise, helpful mother, who is always there for you. I'm simply in love with these pictures you have shared, your mother looks so kind and beautiful and you are like a pretty naughty child:)
    Have a fabulous time!

    Alexandra
    http://www.svetusvet.com

    1. I was a troublesome and spoiled child, but now I'm on the right path, because I've realized how much I've hurt my parents with my attitude. And also now I'm a grown up women, no more childish things;)

    1. Hahahaha you made me laugh!:))) Multumesc frumos…sincer piesa de rezistenta este maieul care este al mamei mele,il are de cand avea 30 de ani cred.;)))

  5. great pictures,love you and your mother,I also missing my mom very much,we have not seen each other for 2 month.
    Pls post more! Shall we follow each other? I love comment and browse blogs I followed!
    XOXO
    Poppy:
    http://me-poppy.blogspot.com
    Pls leave a message if u follow me , i will follow back soon~

  6. He dear,
    Great review!!!

    Would you like to follow each other on GFC/Bloglovin? I'm follwoing you already!! You made my day if you follow me back :))

    Hope you have a fabulous week ahead full of things that makes your heart happy<3

    much ❤ & kisses

    kelpasdairy.blogspot.nl

  7. I have read and looked at the pictures of various posts in reverse: you know incredibly change your style, you look like a different person each time, touches all different types of elegance. New warmest congratulations!

    Luigi

    1. Mi piace leggere pensieri di altri. Vorrei aver tempo per visitare li blog di tuti che mi scrivono , pero non che tempo mai…Scrivimi in italiana perche mi fa piacere leggere e scrivere . scuza le mie errori

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